Sometimes I look at the people I've mentored and poured into and see the paths they've taken and feel like I've failed.
Sometimes I look at the people I'm trying to pour into and impact and feel like I just can't have an impact the way I feel I should.
Sometimes I look at my home and wonder if I'm really leading the way I should.
Sometimes I look at my friends and wonder why I leave community behind compared to how I was raised by my culture out East.
Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever be a great leader who people say, "he's Godly, focused, effective, and loving."
Perhaps I think that all because I see great leaders who have come before and think I can never be like them. Maybe I sell myself short. Maybe it's because I can't imagine myself so far into the future.
Sometimes, I remind myself that I am who I am today and I'm still growing. God's not finished with this leader yet.
Sometimes, I'm reminded that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
Sometimes, I'm reminded that I'm loved and am a good leader. Not because of the impact that I can see, but because of the heart God has given me.
Leadership isn't about being the best. Leadership is about choosing to grow.